Hi everyone! This is my weight loss journey so far.
I was overweight since I was 8 years old. I have a twinsister, who always were thin. Until I was 13 I didn't mind that I was overweight but then through puberty it went worse. I was bullied a lot and felt lonely. I tried to talk to my parents and my sister but they didn't understand. They told me that I was beautiful and that everything was okay.
In 2011 everything went wrong. I reached my highest weight with 97kg. Then my grandfather died. I was so sad about it and cried a lot but no one helped me. It was always like this. I felt terrible but nobody really tried to help me. I started a new diet (not my first one) and it went pretty well the first few months. I lost about 10 kg and everybody was so proud about me and happy that I finally lost weight.
I ate clean all the time but one day I was really hungry because I ate less and less to not gain any weight. I binged and after that I felt guilty and purged for the first time. I told myself it was the first and last time I did this because I felt sick. But it wasn't. From the end of november 2012 to february 2013 there wasn't a day that I didn't purged. When I felt really bad I did it 4 times a day. It went really bad and I felt depressed and started self harming. I stopped eating. There were weeks when I ate 5 days and starved for 2. And worst of all: Nobody noticed. Nobody knew that I had an eating disorder and I never told anyone.
In march I met my boyfriend and we are still together. <3 Without even knewing he helped me threw the disorder. It took me more than half a year but I'm so much better now and I can't remember when I purged the last time.
Now everything is different. I lost 30 kg. Most of it during my disorder. I gained 10 kg back because I started eating normally and now I'm trying to get healthy and fit.
I Train 2-3 times a week kickboxing, cardio or crossfit. I don't know my current weight and I don't have a goal weight. I just want to be healthy. I eat clean 6 days a week but I also eat healthy dessert. Moderation is the key!
I made this blog to Keep myself motivated, to motivate others and to get threw recovery and finally life a healthy Lifestyle.